Entry Number 2

All right ALREADY!!!

This blog stuff is demanding and blah blah blah. :)

My birthday celebration began with pouring rain and a flat tire.   Oh the joys of being an adult and the owner of a car.  Eventually the day got better because I got some sushi, saw some old friends, and was told by a two year old that she did not like me.  

I also received a one of a kind shopping cart from Megan and Lauren.  Thanks girls for the awesome gift… It will come in handy one of these days. 

My feelings for the day were somewhat somber.  The day before I had found out that a friend mine had passed away.  Hony was a photographer and you could always see him on the sideline of any sporting event in the area.  Hony would always talk to my Mom and me and give us the “low down” or gossip of what was going on in the area.  When my Mom died last Feburary he looked through his pictures to find some of her and then he gave them to me.  Those pictures meant the world to me. 

At the first football game of last year we kept having rain and lightning delays.  When we finally got started Hony and I were standing on the sidelines and he pointed something out to me… It was a praying mantis.  Hony said that he was praying that we get this game started.  I laughed and the more I thought about it I felt as if it was a sign from my Mom. She was still there with us on the sidelines. 

Hony was always there… he was a constant figure on the sidelines, he had become my sideline buddy and now he’s gone.  This fall when football season comes around I don’t know what I am going to do.  I won’t have Mom or Hony there, I might just fall to pieces the first game.  It will never be the same and that’s for sure. 

The past week has been difficult.  But it could be worse… it could always be worse.

 

Remember to tell your friends and family you love them because you might not ever get that chance again.  

Twenty - One Plus Eight

What does this all mean??? It means that tomorrow I become one year older, one year closer to the big three zero. It scares me, I never thought I would make it past twenty.  But I'm here and I do love the life I have.  Even though things get rough sometimes I always say to myself, "It Could Be Worse."  That is the honest truth... it could always be worse, so love the life you live.  

I thought I would document my life over the next year and see where l end up.  I never know where I am going to end up and who I am going to meet.  I do not have any plans and I kind of like it like that.  All I have ever wanted is to be happy.  My mom always had my back on that too.  All she ever wanted for my brothers and I was to be happy.  I can hear her saying to me, "I just want you to be happy".  I miss my momma so much but I carry her with me in my heart everyday.  

So Twenty - One Plus Eight... It's all numbers.  That's all. Just silly little numbers that happen to combine to a bigger number. But it's whatever.  I still feel like I am trying to find myself.  I'm still that kid sneaking out to go to parties at a friends house.  I'm the person that insists on going to Hardee's at 2:00 in the morning to get some huggets with my besties.  "Woo Run's" are still MANDATORY on Sunday Nights and Black & Milds are still acceptable!  

... And I would not have it any other way. 

Here's to Twenty - One Plus Eight May you be the BEST year of my life... I cannot wait to see what you have in store for me.